Wednesday, April 14, 2010

The bubble

Sometimes, it seems like we put ourselves into a little bubble. I think i'm guilty of that. We don't really have any friends here in Louisiana (my co-workers are great, but they don't really count because I don't see them outside of work) and though I have dear friends all over the place, I rarely pick up the phone to call them.
I've been living in my little friendless bubble for so long now that I think I sort of forgot how wonderful it is to have a friend.
I remembered this weekend when we got to visit with our friend Anna. We fell right into our comfortable, familiar friendship and it was such a healing experience for me -- it was like going home.
But, our time was short and now I'm back here in the bubble. I don't like living in the bubble, but right now, I just don't see how in the world I can pop it. It's not like I can go out and buy a friend at Wal-Mart.
So, I guess for now, I'll just have to do a better job of staying in contact with the old friends, like Anna.
As far as our pending FET, things are going as scheduled. I start PIO tonight, oh joy and go for monitoring on Friday. At my last sono on Monday my uterine lining was already looking very good. Transfer is Monday if all goes as planned.
The thought occurred to me today that there is a possiblity that none of our three embryos will survive the thaw. I hadn't considered that until today and the thought is upsetting. So, I just decided to tuck that worry away for now. Worrying won't help anyway, right?

1 comment:

  1. Thinking of you and wishing you the best! Hopeful for your 3 embies- I've never really heard of that happening. If they make it through the thaw though, they are strong!

    I know what you mean about the bubble, and my friends are closer. (distance wise)